2.13.2009

eating sadness

i hear your pain
i see your tears
your sadness emanates
it flows thru the space between you and me

i absorb the sorrow
it sinks into a deep dark well
sturdy and protected
filled with our fragility

my heart reaches out
to soften the raw nakedness
my eyes and ears are wide open
eating the heavy air

tomorrow i wake up and feel listless
my home suddenly feels too quiet and still
i neither cry for you
nor eulogize your death

but here i am
writing reflections at a cafe
heavy and thoughtful
full with sadness

...

war, loss, med school, breakup
reasons or not
explanations or not
we are just human

the well can break
it can overflow
it can be slowly emptied
and easily refilled

we eat our fill of sadness
until we can't take another ounce
then it slowly flows back out
finding any path out into the light

in our steps, in the lines around our eyes
the curve of our mouths
the sound of our voice
the color we see the sky

the way we understand the past
the way we move forward
the way i see me
and the way i see us

eating sadness
tasting it purging it
sharing it healing it
feeling it leaving it.

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