ahaha

here i go again..............

the newest addition to the family

yuju: fermented horse's milk...an old school alcoholic beverage for korean queens?
(sis came up with that one)(i call her gongjoo, "princess")

soju is a twackin doof

oh, but he's oh-so-luvable.

africa

this trip is a dream come true. i love international medicine more than ever, and have been lethally bitten by the travel bug. my US squatter ways are officially dead. i foresee a lot of flying in the next 10 years.
next on the list: innndia & the p.i.'s.

more to come when i am back in the states.

salakaleh.

gawd he's good

(You Want To) Make a Memory
Bon Jovi

Hello again, it's you and me
Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life's mysteries

How's your life, it's been a while
God it's good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave

If you don't know if you should stay
If you don't say what's on your mind
Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be
You wanna make a memory

I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had
It's bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing I don't wanna ask

If you go now, I'll understand
If you stay, hey, I've got a plan
We're gonna make a memory

You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines
You wanna make a memory

If you don't know if you should stay
And you don't say what's on your mind
Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be
We Should be

You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

You wanna make a memory

claiming my bragging rights as best butt buddy:

www.mytats.com

can't wait to get my crazy tatt from lynnie once she's an accomplished tatt artist.
hang in there! only a few more weeks...

life is so fabluss.

a much overdue pic update :D

me & mi favorite sac chica ariana at pipe works.
scaaaaary. it'll take me months to work up to that one.


luke to my right doing a much harder climb.
sam caressing the boob rock.


fuddylicious =9.


sis and me at tartine. most delicious 50 bucks i've ever spent.


wine and thymus, yummm =9. BIBA'S is DELISH.


i <3 katie i <3 katie i <3 katie. i also <3 soju.
katie has a booboo. and it's funny.


lynnie's back! hallelujah!!! don't ever deprive me of your presence again!
look at all the stupid things i did while you were gone. hallelujah...


fishies at a bar. how cool is that. and the bubble light thingies mooove.


i look demonic here. omg, ariana is not sticking out her tongue!
is that actually a normal smile?? ;)


still snapping pix of fabluss bathrooms. sharp shootin.


my new little nephew, joshua. he's sad cuz he got circumcised that day.
ji yun unnie has a baby! omg i'm old.


my favorite museum in sf, legion of honor.
can't wait to hit up paris and see some RODIN :D.


tahoe. pretty. cold.


nerdiness. fabluss.


wine, dorkiness, and good times.

Transcript of Nikki Giovanni's Convocation Address

Professor Nikki Giovanni speaks at Convocation, April 17, 2007.

We are Virginia Tech.

We are sad today, and we will be sad for quite a while. We are not moving on, we are embracing our mourning.

We are Virginia Tech.

We are strong enough to stand tall tearlessly, we are brave enough to bend to cry, and we are sad enough to know that we must laugh again.

We are Virginia Tech.

We do not understand this tragedy. We know we did nothing to deserve it, but neither does a child in Africa dying of AIDS, neither do the invisible children walking the night away to avoid being captured by the rogue army, neither does the baby elephant watching his community being devastated for ivory, neither does the Mexican child looking for fresh water, neither does the Appalachian infant killed in the middle of the night in his crib in the home his father built with his own hands being run over by a boulder because the land was destabilized. No one deserves a tragedy.

We are Virginia Tech.

The Hokie Nation embraces our own and reaches out with open heart and hands to those who offer their hearts and minds. We are strong, and brave, and innocent, and unafraid. We are better than we think and not quite what we want to be. We are alive to the imaginations and the possibilities. We will continue to invent the future through our blood and tears and through all our sadness.

We are the Hokies.

We will prevail.

We will prevail.

We will prevail.

We are Virginia Tech.

Fucking Fate
Turning time into a terrible weapon
Twisting around my sense of existence
Squeezing tears out of raw wounds that don’t heal
Future and past tangled up in loss
Potential, Truth ,Terror
Tears drowning my aching spirit
Fighting for breath
For hope
For justice
Suffocating under the weight of
Confusion , Denial, Betrayal
Gasping for a breath of
Acceptance
Stinging my mind
But soothing my soul
Don’t go!
Don’t go!
Don’t go!
You can’t leave now
I don’t know how
To assimilate this information
Into my day to day fucking life
Unmake this pain
That consumes my perception
Please tell me
It isn’t fate
To lose the ones you love
Before they have time to truly live.
-A.B.

We'll miss you Damon.

bittersweet

so this is how it ends. knowing we would never work, but wishing we could. bittersweet.

i've always known i was ocd, but i was never fully aware of how big a control freak i am. having everything fall out of my grasp, unable to really affect the circumstances in my life, losing control of my structured life... it sends me plummeting into confusion, depression, frustration, helplessness. ending up somewhere i didn't envision or expect couldn't be more jarring. i finally get why the unexpected (especially the bad or inconvenient turn of events) affects me the way it does (in horrible horrible ways)--i'm a control freak.

i like figuring out what i want from life--having a picture of the things i want to accomplish before it's all over. then, i like to check each one off, experience by experience. get a tattoo, travel to africa, sponsor a kid, own a motorcycle, etc... i HATE HATE HATE it when things happen to throw me off my grand plan.

but i find ways to cope, adapt, and keep on keepin' on. i guess i'll never learn. i like CONTROL. i LOVE control. i NEED control. but i need to learn to deal better when i lose it. take baby steps.

it's just hit me that i'll be in sacramento almost up to my thirtieth birthday. it's time for me to establish this as my home: build a list of favorite hangouts, some running spots with a view, a solid circle of friends, and the beginnings of a family and a career. my life is here, and it can't be put on hold any longer. carpe diem.

robin thicke is a delicious treat to my ears.

"both sides now..."
[joni mitchell]

lemonade. need to make me some of that.

Reflecting:
It’s been a long time since I last stopped and took a deep breath, and reflected. 2006 passed by in a blur—when I try to pinpoint one moment, it seems like a small drop in a massive rain of memories. Could I even remember them all if I wanted to? Or will they pop up sporadically in moments of deja vue? With everything that has happened, I feel as though I should have some tangible lessons in hand… a couple I am sure of, the rest I’m not so confident about. Being busy needs to have its limits—so much has happened, I can’t even scratch the surface of what significance it all held. I only hope, as they loom above me as a nebulous mixture of maxims and ellipses, that time will unfold the truths the experiences of this past year hold.

Walking along the beach:
There’s a special quality about the ocean—its roaring waves fill the ears until there is an encompassing silence. The silence transmits through the nerves and seems to transfuse the entire body, allowing only the echoes of one’s voice within to reverberate in the silence that surrounds. I’m reminded of my transiency and all of the simple pleasures I desire—reminded that I control my personal destiny (at least measurably in comparison to everything else) and must trust myself to accomplish all the the dreams I envision for my life. Perhaps life is a journey about the fingerprints we leave on one another’s lives, but first I would like to have hands where the lines course deep and branch plentifully.

Being alone:
It hurts, and yet, it feels like the promising salve of medicine on my life. Rationally knowing a love is doomed, then accepting it in my heart and acting accordingly creates a relieving consistency—like I’m not lying to myself anymore and trying to juggle everything around the lie. I don’t know what happens next, but hopefully time will give reason to our shared paths. And if not, I'm thankful enough for the love we shared and the wonderful ways we expanded our horizons. On the flip side, I’ve met a handful of diamonds this past year (including you D), and I’m looking forward to the friendships that will continue on and bloom and the experiences life will bring in this new chapter of my life.

...I’ve missed the city… its stretches of sand and waves on the west, the park sprouting at its center, its warm and bustling cafes smattering the many neighborhoods with their colorful and eclectic inhabitants, and the richness of life that can be felt everywhere. Whenever I'm here, I get the overwhelming sense that I belong here. One day I'll call it home again...

www2.darringer.com:8080/chris/gallery/slideshow.php?set_albumName=sfo-ocean-beach

love

Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification. [wiki]

Love is indescribable.

"If I know what love is, it is because of you". ~ Hermann Hesse